i don't know anymore. haha. i tried really hard to trust people and then it comes crashing down at my face. *sigh*
guys blah!
February 28, 2008
The Days Without Guys - Day 176
i think i should give up on humans in general. why do we always try and blame other people to get ourselves out of troubles? its just in our nature to take the easy way out of things but sometimes it hurts.
i don't know anymore. haha. i tried really hard to trust people and then it comes crashing down at my face. *sigh*
guys blah!
i don't know anymore. haha. i tried really hard to trust people and then it comes crashing down at my face. *sigh*
guys blah!
February 14, 2008
The Days Without Guys - Day 162.....
So Valentine's Day once again. Haha Che Xinh Xa said she hopes all those enjoy the day with love ones would choke on chocolate. It is kinda cruel but considering that we sit here and rot ourselves to death. Sad. Why! lol. I tell you why, life is always unfair. I say you guys should be happy with what you have seriously....OR I will come and take it away from you muahahhahaha. ok. enough about this.
So today I went to my class and uh it was blah. All lecture about nothing. I didn't learn crap. Well maybe I'm exagerrating but I think I learned a bit, just a bit only. I was dressing in mostly red... my favorite color, hoping it will bring me some luck. No I'm not supertitious, I'm just desperate. :( HAHA. So the guy next to me, I flirted with him a bit. I was like so you're gonna be a hard grader? (We are all going to be teachers and we were making a fake grade book thingy for our assigments. He seemed to know what was going on. He came in late but was able to catch up quickly. We were working with spreadsheets, yeah like excell. It is so my worse enemy, I hate it. Anyway so I think I should get to know him so he can help me in the future. BUT usually he sits so far on the other side of the room. It was just today that he came in late and so he sat next to me. GOSH. He isn't hot hot but he is ok. We do have a group project in the future and I hope we get pair up. I think he is kind of the shy type. I think. He was like answering me like .." Well.. I... " Yeah that's it. And I quickly turned out and do my usual "hhehe" remark. fake laugh as you might call it.
So I have an exam tomorrow that I need to REALLY study for, and I am tomorrow. Yeah I have two breaks before the class. So I can manage some study times. Also tomorrow I get to see the smiling guy. You know. But lately he havent looked at me. I noticed that seldomly he does and then looked away. I swear that day I wonder if there was something horrible on my face lol. Just kidding. But I did manage to talk to him. He got jokes... and so do I. I think it is going well. You know I know connect for the purpose of class, grades, and so on. It seems like so much using. But seriously this world is about exploitation, which was how America was founded. (Here I go again with my history). Well.
January 29, 2008
The Days Without Guys - Day 146
I think for Che Trai Cay, she is not without guys. hehe
Well today I went to return a book at the school bookstore. It wasnt the right book that they pointed me at. In fact the book I need is not yet to come. Maybe the end of this week. It is rather annoying so I actually let the dude at the desk my thoughts. Basically he said it is not up to him or the school to decide to order the full amount as the professor asked or that they price things accordingly. But that it is based on supply and demand. Bull. Haha I was like is there a place I can fill a complain and I saw some shockness in him. I guess he never thought anyone would actually do it. I wasn't knowing that it won't do much. He said maybe you should petition it to the state. haha yeah. whatever. sighs i just have to go else where to get my book.
It has been so long since I wrote something. The thing beside laziness is that I dont want to be having to do this as some sort of a task but rather something that i want to and feel like i want that way it sounds better and not like im force to write and so it sounds not right. not sure if u dont understand or not but yea. speaking of laziness haha che ba mau is on the blacklist. i understand the reasons still i just want things to go smoothly for once? i guess i should not expect anything.
you know being in class makes well not class but in this computer lab makes me feel kinda sad? why you ask maybe because i miss kfed haha. i told him that i hope to not see him anymore that class meaning that we should both pass the class and not repeat. yet when i said it it came out to be so ... painful haha. no dont jump into conclusion. it is nothing more than the natural emotions of a human being and how we are tie to people when we spend much time with them that we dont want to leave. but u noe separation is hard to not come to. wow i wrote so much. im not gonna do any proof reading i think i will have lots of mistake in my writing but i believe that you are capable of understand what i see in term of basic meaning even if i do make mistakes ****
January 11, 2008
The Days Without Guys - Day 128
it's been a while since my last post, you might say the big and powerful laziness monster came and took away all my ambitions to post but that would be a lie. haha. i was just plain lazy, simple as that. oh i don't even know the day system anymore its like o.o! what? haha. i come back it jump from 101 to 109 to 123? are we playing the number game now? haha.
i'm quite please with today, because on the bus, this dude made me cry the last time -.-! i think i'm emotional unstable, i don't know how i am going to survive in the real world. so last time, which was last year, i asked him if i can sit with him even though he was probably joking and said 'no' cause he moved over for me to sit anyways. i couldn't help it but shed a few tears cause i am weak like that -.-! i mean i just sat there looking out the window and tears came down, i was telling me that i wouldn't cry but the more you say it the more the counteractions will occur. so for the rest of the week i asked my dad to take me to school but school was like 30 minute away, such a long drive. BUT BUT today i didn't even ask him and he was like 'you can sit with me' :]. YAY a new year means people are changing for the better?
oh on the bus today, these guys were talking about this father who threw for of his kids in Alabama down a bridge after an argument with his wife? and one dude was like 'you got to understand, he's korean' they make it seems like all korean are killers now. i feel bad for their ethic group being stereotyping down to such means after the Virgina tech incident. and there are many korean celebs, both actors and singers, are wanting to break through in america. but i think it will be really hard to get accepted after the things that has happened. i do wish them the best of luck.
so my group project is over, i'm so glad that we finally turned it in because they weren't committed to doing anything like at least have the dignity to help me out when i needed some help on it. but no! they just keep making excuses to NOT help me like WTFREAK! if you going to put your name on the project at least do something. makes me mad how i spent hours on it and during the presentation they make it seem like they did everything. -.- i don't want the credit it anyways, it wasn't even THAT good. yeah not going to talk about it anymore, each time it makes me even angrier haha. o.o.
back to the guy subject, a new year, new guys are being born too bad we will be locked up if we even look at them. no thoughts u PEDOS! haha. you see all the these girls, having secret admirers that are willing to wait for them like for really longs time and i'm the one sitting here wondering when will it be my turn. haha. but then again. che trai cay is going to be a nun! to escape all the boy craziness in the world and live a life eating tofu. oh boy that seems exciting or not. i don't want a boyfriend or anything just some one hot to look at during class. haha. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK! i guess it is, cause its not happening soon unless i like print out hot male asian celeb pictures and put it on my desk during class to stare at -.-! haha.
a sweet love memory, is it really that sweet? or its just an illusion people create to make love seem like the thing people mostly want to obtain just to have a slight taste of that sweetness, but in reality is heartache and pain in the end. i would still like to try it out though. haha. darn curiosity sure do kill the che. haha. but theres no guys out there for me to trail and test on cause i want a lot and probably going to get nothing -.-! but if you don't set a bar for someone to climb forward and be able to reach you, how would you identify who is truly the one for you and who is the one that happen to get lucky with his words?
but who needs guys when we can eat che. haha.
i'm quite please with today, because on the bus, this dude made me cry the last time -.-! i think i'm emotional unstable, i don't know how i am going to survive in the real world. so last time, which was last year, i asked him if i can sit with him even though he was probably joking and said 'no' cause he moved over for me to sit anyways. i couldn't help it but shed a few tears cause i am weak like that -.-! i mean i just sat there looking out the window and tears came down, i was telling me that i wouldn't cry but the more you say it the more the counteractions will occur. so for the rest of the week i asked my dad to take me to school but school was like 30 minute away, such a long drive. BUT BUT today i didn't even ask him and he was like 'you can sit with me' :]. YAY a new year means people are changing for the better?
oh on the bus today, these guys were talking about this father who threw for of his kids in Alabama down a bridge after an argument with his wife? and one dude was like 'you got to understand, he's korean' they make it seems like all korean are killers now. i feel bad for their ethic group being stereotyping down to such means after the Virgina tech incident. and there are many korean celebs, both actors and singers, are wanting to break through in america. but i think it will be really hard to get accepted after the things that has happened. i do wish them the best of luck.
so my group project is over, i'm so glad that we finally turned it in because they weren't committed to doing anything like at least have the dignity to help me out when i needed some help on it. but no! they just keep making excuses to NOT help me like WTFREAK! if you going to put your name on the project at least do something. makes me mad how i spent hours on it and during the presentation they make it seem like they did everything. -.- i don't want the credit it anyways, it wasn't even THAT good. yeah not going to talk about it anymore, each time it makes me even angrier haha. o.o.
back to the guy subject, a new year, new guys are being born too bad we will be locked up if we even look at them. no thoughts u PEDOS! haha. you see all the these girls, having secret admirers that are willing to wait for them like for really longs time and i'm the one sitting here wondering when will it be my turn. haha. but then again. che trai cay is going to be a nun! to escape all the boy craziness in the world and live a life eating tofu. oh boy that seems exciting or not. i don't want a boyfriend or anything just some one hot to look at during class. haha. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK! i guess it is, cause its not happening soon unless i like print out hot male asian celeb pictures and put it on my desk during class to stare at -.-! haha.
a sweet love memory, is it really that sweet? or its just an illusion people create to make love seem like the thing people mostly want to obtain just to have a slight taste of that sweetness, but in reality is heartache and pain in the end. i would still like to try it out though. haha. darn curiosity sure do kill the che. haha. but theres no guys out there for me to trail and test on cause i want a lot and probably going to get nothing -.-! but if you don't set a bar for someone to climb forward and be able to reach you, how would you identify who is truly the one for you and who is the one that happen to get lucky with his words?
but who needs guys when we can eat che. haha.
January 6, 2008
The Days Without Guys - Day 123
I have a couple more weeks till I'm back at school so I will try to enjoy my days...
So far I did a some good and enjoyable things during my break. Today is the premeire of Cashmere Mafia that I will watch. I hope its good. Ever since those reality shows like Suvivior ended, I was without much to watch on TV. Reality shows are fun, the people who get casted.. haha.
Anyway I woke up today feeling blah like usual because of my irregular sleep time. And then I had two hambugers. (Not breakfast food- it was like noon). It wasn't all that great. I also had Mountaindew. And it wasnt all that great either. Right now I'm craving ice cold water. I took a shower earlier before I got online. I made me feel a bit better but I hope to feel even better later on.
As you can probably sense the boredom-ness and the randomness plus that kind of uninteresting tone-feeling that you get from reading my entry. Well it is probably because I feel quite the same as I type this. On and on and on without knowing or caring what my point is or that I am writing for and that there is any kind of connection whatsoever in what I write. It is as though my fingers write on its own and I am as the reader reading what it is writing and cannot control, change or do anything kind of editing but that I can only go with the flow as I am writing and changing from one topic to another like poetry and like bad poetry that cannot be understood. Okay I hope to end it all right now.
December 23, 2007
The Days Without Guys - Day 109
WOW
In a few days, it'll be a brand new year already. And Xmas is just around the corner. And like the other many Che's, I feel in the spirit for something too. Not sure what it is though. Probably something phenomenal, like having an open mind and being laid back, not so uptight and "pissy".
Ever since my last blog, I've had many revelations. Like the fact that I could careless about what others think of me. And also that I need to stop spending money and focus on the good things in life. Like school, and HOW to make money.
And also folks, my parents are going out of the country once again soon. and this time, for only 2 months, but that's long enough already. Oh the joy. But there won't be any secret mission to Philly, rather, just late night parties or even a trip to Vegas...maybe.
More good news on the way.
My sister is pregnant. WONDERFUL! In a few more months, I'll have my first mixed white niece or nephew. Hey, maybe that'll be where my mission will take place, in Chicago! Wouldn't that be exciting.
Women are evil. Plain and simple. But men on the other hand, are idiots. Pure dumb heads. Forget Jackfruit folks, he's old history. Rather, he wasn't history, but just a bypass. That kind of distraction isn't really worth my time, so I'm moving on. Not sure to what else though. You gotta remember, I'm still a very shy, innocent girl. Can't expect me to just grab any guy and have my way with him. At least, not just any guy, I gotta at least know his name first.
The other day, after finals, me and a bunch of my friends went over to a friend's house to "party". Wasn't much of a party, rather, I wasted $20 bucks on food. Blah, now I'm so damn broke, it's not even funny. I owe myself $30 bucks. That's how sad it is. And then, the night before, we went to this park where they had this trail set up filled with lights. I finally went after hearing about it for so long. And well, wasn't what I really expected, but it was an okay trip. Seeeing as how I went with my sister and her friends, I didn't feel so left out like going with my friend's friends.
Big big change in my life. I'm no longer a redhead. T_____T My hair is black. OMG, it freaked the shit out of me last night after my mom finished dying it. It was HORRIBLE. but thank god it's not totally jet black, or I'd have a panic attack. But wait wait, I won't stay asian for long. Cause I am not letting anyone in school see this head of mine. Before going back to school, I'm gonna dye it auburn once again. LOL. Had no idea why i wanted to go asian again. My mom was like "Now you look like a true vietnamese girl" lol. She couldn't be any happier. But sorry mom, your happiness isn't gonna last for long. Besides, I look awful with this black hair. And its so hard to get use to. And just think, I went like this for nearly 14 years of my life, now it's like looking at a stranger in the mirror. You guys probably won't even recognize me.
Now I have to start readying myself to take college courses through the internet. Oh the horror. Having to push yourself to read books and do homework. -__-" But at least I'll get more class periods off to study and do and get things done.
So lets end this with a holiday spirit why don't we. What are you guys getting me for the xmas then? ^_^ hahaha One of my friend got me this candy lollipop, in the shape of a penis -___-" GEE GOLLY. And hey, new years is around the bend too. Be happy everyone, cause I sure as hell am trying here.
Ciao!
In a few days, it'll be a brand new year already. And Xmas is just around the corner. And like the other many Che's, I feel in the spirit for something too. Not sure what it is though. Probably something phenomenal, like having an open mind and being laid back, not so uptight and "pissy".
Ever since my last blog, I've had many revelations. Like the fact that I could careless about what others think of me. And also that I need to stop spending money and focus on the good things in life. Like school, and HOW to make money.
And also folks, my parents are going out of the country once again soon. and this time, for only 2 months, but that's long enough already. Oh the joy. But there won't be any secret mission to Philly, rather, just late night parties or even a trip to Vegas...maybe.
More good news on the way.
My sister is pregnant. WONDERFUL! In a few more months, I'll have my first mixed white niece or nephew. Hey, maybe that'll be where my mission will take place, in Chicago! Wouldn't that be exciting.
Women are evil. Plain and simple. But men on the other hand, are idiots. Pure dumb heads. Forget Jackfruit folks, he's old history. Rather, he wasn't history, but just a bypass. That kind of distraction isn't really worth my time, so I'm moving on. Not sure to what else though. You gotta remember, I'm still a very shy, innocent girl. Can't expect me to just grab any guy and have my way with him. At least, not just any guy, I gotta at least know his name first.
The other day, after finals, me and a bunch of my friends went over to a friend's house to "party". Wasn't much of a party, rather, I wasted $20 bucks on food. Blah, now I'm so damn broke, it's not even funny. I owe myself $30 bucks. That's how sad it is. And then, the night before, we went to this park where they had this trail set up filled with lights. I finally went after hearing about it for so long. And well, wasn't what I really expected, but it was an okay trip. Seeeing as how I went with my sister and her friends, I didn't feel so left out like going with my friend's friends.
Big big change in my life. I'm no longer a redhead. T_____T My hair is black. OMG, it freaked the shit out of me last night after my mom finished dying it. It was HORRIBLE. but thank god it's not totally jet black, or I'd have a panic attack. But wait wait, I won't stay asian for long. Cause I am not letting anyone in school see this head of mine. Before going back to school, I'm gonna dye it auburn once again. LOL. Had no idea why i wanted to go asian again. My mom was like "Now you look like a true vietnamese girl" lol. She couldn't be any happier. But sorry mom, your happiness isn't gonna last for long. Besides, I look awful with this black hair. And its so hard to get use to. And just think, I went like this for nearly 14 years of my life, now it's like looking at a stranger in the mirror. You guys probably won't even recognize me.
Now I have to start readying myself to take college courses through the internet. Oh the horror. Having to push yourself to read books and do homework. -__-" But at least I'll get more class periods off to study and do and get things done.
So lets end this with a holiday spirit why don't we. What are you guys getting me for the xmas then? ^_^ hahaha One of my friend got me this candy lollipop, in the shape of a penis -___-" GEE GOLLY. And hey, new years is around the bend too. Be happy everyone, cause I sure as hell am trying here.
Ciao!
December 16, 2007
The Days Without Guys - Day 101
Gosh what a relieve it is to be free and out of school. I'm on my winter break till January 22! That is so awesome. Now that I have so much free time. I still need to manage it so that I am doing all that I wanted to do before going back to school without much regrets. ACTUALLY!!! now that I thought about it, I have this teacher exam thingy, the um what is it, uh .. let me think praxis yes hahha take me so long to think of the name. It is on Jan 12! so thats a bummer. If i pass, yay! if not sucks. I need to study for it, I cannot believe it. gzz.. there go a flaw in my BREAK!
You know what, Che Xinh Xa has a point. What if one day, it is not days without guys but with guys. Then what will be then? Will it ruins the theme of this blog? Should we change name or make a new one? LOl. NO. It will not be that major. Maybe Che Xinh Xa has love in the air... hmn.. if so, good luck. Follow your heart and don't let it get away.
Everytime school is over, I feel good. But within that is a bit of bitterness. After so long you kind of get use to what you're doing and now that you don't do it anymore. Well...... you miss it. I miss everything really. It's weird. I even miss KFed. I told him that I hope to not see you anymore in this class again! Meaning ofcourse we better pass the class. But then I really am will never see him again. NEVER SAY NEVER but who knows. Out of all my five classes, I know for sure that I have an A+ in one of them cause the professor posted grades up online as the semester progress. So no surprises there. I like that class, it was on asian religion and the professor is awesome. I guess I like him because we share a common interest in philosophical stuff or so I feel. Anyway.
I need to save up my money for something, but I don't know yet. I want to reward myself. You should too.
December 10, 2007
The Days Without Guys - Day 100
lets welcome the first snow day of the year! well it wouldn't necessarily be a 'snow' day since all we had on the ground was ice, but pshh ill be happy for anything right now. haha. so yesterday i kept opening the door at around 10 and such to see if it was raining, because the weather people were like it needs to rain first for the water to form into ice overnight. i got exicted cause it rained! then became sad again when it stopped. my mom told me asked me what kind of student i am to wish that there was no school, and i replied "the good kind" haha.
I feel empty nowdays, nothing motivate me anymore, but i know that the only person that can truely motivate one self is themself. however, lately i'm at lost. i need to find myself before finals! haha "MARCOOOOOO!"
i was watching "all about eve" again this weekend, and yes i did finish the 20 hours of it when i should of been like studying -_-! but anyways i realize that love is so foolish, but i already knew that. haha. i mean the dude basically said, "i don't care if you were a prostitute, or you want to chase after him but all i need if you to stay with me." i thought that line was all mighty noble and everything but iuno. he deserve better, but love is blind. too blind that even the blindest person can see through it better. haha. i would never know because the closest i have gotten to that is by watching dramas, but hey! its better than nothing. haha
this is kind of stupid, but why am i awake to blog when there no SCHOOL? -_-! i should be like smart and go back to sleep, but then if i sleep i would waste this snow day! or ice day! what am i kidding. i`m going back to sleep. -_-! haha
I feel empty nowdays, nothing motivate me anymore, but i know that the only person that can truely motivate one self is themself. however, lately i'm at lost. i need to find myself before finals! haha "MARCOOOOOO!"
i was watching "all about eve" again this weekend, and yes i did finish the 20 hours of it when i should of been like studying -_-! but anyways i realize that love is so foolish, but i already knew that. haha. i mean the dude basically said, "i don't care if you were a prostitute, or you want to chase after him but all i need if you to stay with me." i thought that line was all mighty noble and everything but iuno. he deserve better, but love is blind. too blind that even the blindest person can see through it better. haha. i would never know because the closest i have gotten to that is by watching dramas, but hey! its better than nothing. haha
this is kind of stupid, but why am i awake to blog when there no SCHOOL? -_-! i should be like smart and go back to sleep, but then if i sleep i would waste this snow day! or ice day! what am i kidding. i`m going back to sleep. -_-! haha
December 5, 2007
The Days Without Guys - Day 99
today, we had a motivational speaker to come and speak to us and let's say that i haven't laughed like that for such a long time. he was really an awesome speaker. we got to play simon said. and i lost like within the first 30 seconds of it! i'm such a bad player but i was really good at the crab game since i played it a thousand times at camp ^___^. what really got me was when he kept pouring out of this cup, i could of swear he turned dumped the whole thing over like 3 times and still water came out of it each time. i wonder how that cup works.
that was after 3 hours of the practice act. it was so time killing. i couldn't get the reading part done. and like i randomly selected answers on the science part cause i was running out of time. -_-. during the testing you could hear people stomach just growling like crazy and its hard to concentrate when you trying to stop your own stomach from doing the same thing as well! -_-!
but yeah i think i got my group member in troubles since her dad got lost getting to my house. but dude i just moved here, its not like i know any of the names of the street he is telling me. rawr. i feel like a bad person now
*sigh* i still have 100 page left to read on my 'all quiet on the western front' book for the test on friday in english. oh yeah! so looking forward to that, actually i am since the book is quite easy to read and interesting in a way.
i don't really know anymore. just hope i can survive these last 2 week of the semester.
day 99. reminds me of the 999 doa hong only its 99 instead of 999 but 99 is better than nothing. get it? haha
that was after 3 hours of the practice act. it was so time killing. i couldn't get the reading part done. and like i randomly selected answers on the science part cause i was running out of time. -_-. during the testing you could hear people stomach just growling like crazy and its hard to concentrate when you trying to stop your own stomach from doing the same thing as well! -_-!
but yeah i think i got my group member in troubles since her dad got lost getting to my house. but dude i just moved here, its not like i know any of the names of the street he is telling me. rawr. i feel like a bad person now
*sigh* i still have 100 page left to read on my 'all quiet on the western front' book for the test on friday in english. oh yeah! so looking forward to that, actually i am since the book is quite easy to read and interesting in a way.
i don't really know anymore. just hope i can survive these last 2 week of the semester.
day 99. reminds me of the 999 doa hong only its 99 instead of 999 but 99 is better than nothing. get it? haha
December 2, 2007
The Days Without Guys - Day 98
Hello...
I have been quite busy with school and laziness to post. I have done a lot of it in the past with no feelings, just as a job to post daily. I should post when I feel it, I think its more meaningful. Anyway, school is coming to an end for me. I feel kind of relief a bit but not much...
I don't like what Tom Cruise has done to Katie Holmes, she is looking older, scarier, and just eh.. did you see her new hair cut? What is with that? I didn't like Victoria Beckham's do, I don't like it on her either. I guess I miss the old young, youngful happy smiling Katie, not Kate. Tom is looking shorter and younger, Katie is older, taller and thin. They are scary looking.
Mmm... sighs I feel blah. I finished my paper for class. I just need to do now is STUDY, lots for 5 finals. *yawn* I think I have to go take a shower...
Yeah I wish you can join me, NOT. I want to take a bath actually.. but like..uh
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