The Days Without Guys - Day 315

Hell, only 60 more days till it'll be a full year. I hope we all can do a blog on that day, kind of like a celebration of this, though a number of us aren't experiencing days without guys any longer. No faux pas, but hopefully those that were able to escape these days will never have to return.

A brief interlude of life from me.

Why. Who here haven't been chickened aka kissed? With the exception of Che Thai, I'm sure we all have huh?

The more I read this thread on soompi of "first makeout sessions", it's making me more and MORE depressed. I haven't been chicken in years! Ahhh the agony.

Besides my painful desires that have yet to be fulfilled, I want everyone to know, YES I AM A CHICKEN. I am seriously an idiot. A stupid fat little idiotic chicken. I all talk but when it comes to walk the walk, where am i? Chickening out. Oh yeah. How pathetic.

Let me ask you Ches, those that ever come here and read. How do I do it? How do I have the courage to approach him? I thought I could. Everyone else thought I could. But when push came to shove, I just threw myself into a fetal position and let by gones GO BY!!! All I had to do was walk up to him and place my order and ask for his number. But no, I didn't have to guts to do so and wasted 2 hours just sitting there, staring at him. HUHUHU. I mean, how can you just walk up to a guy and start something? What if he isn't interested and I end up being a loser? Well technicially, I am one, for sitting here and whining about this. But But. I just can't do it. I don't have the confidence in me. I just don't.

STOP READING NOW. THE REST ARE JUST PLAIN IDIOTIC WORDS TO MYSELF.

"YOU IDIOT. YOU STINKING IDIOT. WHERE ARE YOUR BALLS. WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT BRAVO? YOU MAKE ME SICK. BE A WOMAN AND GO GET THAT MAN. OR MOVE ON!"

-ahem-

So after a day has passed, I am here, regretting my chickenshit. For not approaching him. I mean, rejection is a really really hard thing to accept. It kills more than 90% of chances of people ever finding true love or hell, GETTING LAID.

So I've made up my mind AGAIN to go ask him for his number this coming Saturday. That means 6 days of talking myself into approaching him and what to say, only to have it dashed away 100 yards away from approaching him. The devil it be.

OH GREAT OL' Ches. Help your fellowship. Teach me your excellent ways. Or if you have those seduction pills or anything, I'm game. ^_^