The Days Without Guys - Day 176

i think i should give up on humans in general. why do we always try and blame other people to get ourselves out of troubles? its just in our nature to take the easy way out of things but sometimes it hurts.

i don't know anymore. haha. i tried really hard to trust people and then it comes crashing down at my face. *sigh*

guys blah!

The Days Without Guys - Day 162.....

So Valentine's Day once again. Haha Che Xinh Xa said she hopes all those enjoy the day with love ones would choke on chocolate. It is kinda cruel but considering that we sit here and rot ourselves to death. Sad. Why! lol. I tell you why, life is always unfair. I say you guys should be happy with what you have seriously....OR I will come and take it away from you muahahhahaha. ok. enough about this.

So today I went to my class and uh it was blah. All lecture about nothing. I didn't learn crap. Well maybe I'm exagerrating but I think I learned a bit, just a bit only. I was dressing in mostly red... my favorite color, hoping it will bring me some luck. No I'm not supertitious, I'm just desperate. :( HAHA. So the guy next to me, I flirted with him a bit. I was like so you're gonna be a hard grader? (We are all going to be teachers and we were making a fake grade book thingy for our assigments. He seemed to know what was going on. He came in late but was able to catch up quickly. We were working with spreadsheets, yeah like excell. It is so my worse enemy, I hate it. Anyway so I think I should get to know him so he can help me in the future. BUT usually he sits so far on the other side of the room. It was just today that he came in late and so he sat next to me. GOSH. He isn't hot hot but he is ok. We do have a group project in the future and I hope we get pair up. I think he is kind of the shy type. I think. He was like answering me like .." Well.. I... " Yeah that's it. And I quickly turned out and do my usual "hhehe" remark. fake laugh as you might call it.

So I have an exam tomorrow that I need to REALLY study for, and I am tomorrow. Yeah I have two breaks before the class. So I can manage some study times. Also tomorrow I get to see the smiling guy. You know. But lately he havent looked at me. I noticed that seldomly he does and then looked away. I swear that day I wonder if there was something horrible on my face lol. Just kidding. But I did manage to talk to him. He got jokes... and so do I. I think it is going well. You know I know connect for the purpose of class, grades, and so on. It seems like so much using. But seriously this world is about exploitation, which was how America was founded. (Here I go again with my history). Well.