I listen as the water beats on the rocks. Luminous life floats on by. Waiting for savor. How little turns my head. Bound by the sea of light, I search from nowhere. A distance cry. Startling life. Beats shrill the night. I wait.
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No idea what I just wrote. Nonsense. Entirely.
When I thought all is calm, and that I had found sanctuary, the tables are turned on me. Now I have no clue. Decisions decisions. Will my dreams get crushed and the past haunt me? I have yet to answer. But time does not wait.
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The days without guys. "When you're having fun, time flies". what BS. When you're having "fun", it's only to set you up for disappointment. I don't need fun, I need satisfaction. At least then I know it isn't pseudo.
Thinking about it gives me closure, knowing that I am still alive, and not buried under the loneliness. But thoughts come with pain.
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Lets translate all of the above into english why don't we?
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Am I sick of being single? Yes.
What do I plan on doing about it? Nothing
Why not, you idiot? Because good things come to those who wait.
BULLSHIT.
But even if I don't agree, I am still not going to do anything to change it, because I am too afraid of jinxing myself. What I do need to do is stop being so picky. Or so everybody keeps telling me. Am I so picky? I think not. I just happen to not find anyone that satisfy me. Brings us back to the point that yes, I can have fun with someone, but at the end of the day, I am not satisfied. So what is the outcome?
The continuation of this blog. -_-
Ciao!
