The Days Without Guys - Day 146

I think for Che Trai Cay, she is not without guys. hehe

Well today I went to return a book at the school bookstore. It wasnt the right book that they pointed me at. In fact the book I need is not yet to come. Maybe the end of this week. It is rather annoying so I actually let the dude at the desk my thoughts. Basically he said it is not up to him or the school to decide to order the full amount as the professor asked or that they price things accordingly. But that it is based on supply and demand. Bull. Haha I was like is there a place I can fill a complain and I saw some shockness in him. I guess he never thought anyone would actually do it. I wasn't knowing that it won't do much. He said maybe you should petition it to the state. haha yeah. whatever. sighs i just have to go else where to get my book.

It has been so long since I wrote something. The thing beside laziness is that I dont want to be having to do this as some sort of a task but rather something that i want to and feel like i want that way it sounds better and not like im force to write and so it sounds not right. not sure if u dont understand or not but yea. speaking of laziness haha che ba mau is on the blacklist. i understand the reasons still i just want things to go smoothly for once? i guess i should not expect anything.

you know being in class makes well not class but in this computer lab makes me feel kinda sad? why you ask maybe because i miss kfed haha. i told him that i hope to not see him anymore that class meaning that we should both pass the class and not repeat. yet when i said it it came out to be so ... painful haha. no dont jump into conclusion. it is nothing more than the natural emotions of a human being and how we are tie to people when we spend much time with them that we dont want to leave. but u noe separation is hard to not come to. wow i wrote so much. im not gonna do any proof reading i think i will have lots of mistake in my writing but i believe that you are capable of understand what i see in term of basic meaning even if i do make mistakes ****

The Days Without Guys - Day 128

it's been a while since my last post, you might say the big and powerful laziness monster came and took away all my ambitions to post but that would be a lie. haha. i was just plain lazy, simple as that. oh i don't even know the day system anymore its like o.o! what? haha. i come back it jump from 101 to 109 to 123? are we playing the number game now? haha.

i'm quite please with today, because on the bus, this dude made me cry the last time -.-! i think i'm emotional unstable, i don't know how i am going to survive in the real world. so last time, which was last year, i asked him if i can sit with him even though he was probably joking and said 'no' cause he moved over for me to sit anyways. i couldn't help it but shed a few tears cause i am weak like that -.-! i mean i just sat there looking out the window and tears came down, i was telling me that i wouldn't cry but the more you say it the more the counteractions will occur. so for the rest of the week i asked my dad to take me to school but school was like 30 minute away, such a long drive. BUT BUT today i didn't even ask him and he was like 'you can sit with me' :]. YAY a new year means people are changing for the better?

oh on the bus today, these guys were talking about this father who threw for of his kids in Alabama down a bridge after an argument with his wife? and one dude was like 'you got to understand, he's korean' they make it seems like all korean are killers now. i feel bad for their ethic group being stereotyping down to such means after the Virgina tech incident. and there are many korean celebs, both actors and singers, are wanting to break through in america. but i think it will be really hard to get accepted after the things that has happened. i do wish them the best of luck.

so my group project is over, i'm so glad that we finally turned it in because they weren't committed to doing anything like at least have the dignity to help me out when i needed some help on it. but no! they just keep making excuses to NOT help me like WTFREAK! if you going to put your name on the project at least do something. makes me mad how i spent hours on it and during the presentation they make it seem like they did everything. -.- i don't want the credit it anyways, it wasn't even THAT good. yeah not going to talk about it anymore, each time it makes me even angrier haha. o.o.

back to the guy subject, a new year, new guys are being born too bad we will be locked up if we even look at them. no thoughts u PEDOS! haha. you see all the these girls, having secret admirers that are willing to wait for them like for really longs time and i'm the one sitting here wondering when will it be my turn. haha. but then again. che trai cay is going to be a nun! to escape all the boy craziness in the world and live a life eating tofu. oh boy that seems exciting or not. i don't want a boyfriend or anything just some one hot to look at during class. haha. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK! i guess it is, cause its not happening soon unless i like print out hot male asian celeb pictures and put it on my desk during class to stare at -.-! haha.

a sweet love memory, is it really that sweet? or its just an illusion people create to make love seem like the thing people mostly want to obtain just to have a slight taste of that sweetness, but in reality is heartache and pain in the end. i would still like to try it out though. haha. darn curiosity sure do kill the che. haha. but theres no guys out there for me to trail and test on cause i want a lot and probably going to get nothing -.-! but if you don't set a bar for someone to climb forward and be able to reach you, how would you identify who is truly the one for you and who is the one that happen to get lucky with his words?

but who needs guys when we can eat che. haha.

The Days Without Guys - Day 123

I have a couple more weeks till I'm back at school so I will try to enjoy my days...

So far I did a some good and enjoyable things during my break. Today is the premeire of Cashmere Mafia that I will watch. I hope its good. Ever since those reality shows like Suvivior ended, I was without much to watch on TV. Reality shows are fun, the people who get casted.. haha.

Anyway I woke up today feeling blah like usual because of my irregular sleep time. And then I had two hambugers. (Not breakfast food- it was like noon). It wasn't all that great. I also had Mountaindew. And it wasnt all that great either. Right now I'm craving ice cold water. I took a shower earlier before I got online. I made me feel a bit better but I hope to feel even better later on.

As you can probably sense the boredom-ness and the randomness plus that kind of uninteresting tone-feeling that you get from reading my entry. Well it is probably because I feel quite the same as I type this. On and on and on without knowing or caring what my point is or that I am writing for and that there is any kind of connection whatsoever in what I write. It is as though my fingers write on its own and I am as the reader reading what it is writing and cannot control, change or do anything kind of editing but that I can only go with the flow as I am writing and changing from one topic to another like poetry and like bad poetry that cannot be understood. Okay I hope to end it all right now.