The Days Without Guys - Day 97

The night is barely any late, but yet, I am so tired. So I'll blog until my eyes can't open any wider than the chinkiness of it will allow.

Resuming many thoughts from the last blog, what do I have to update?

Jackfruit has made no move on me. Which, in a way, is okay with me, but then...seriously, WTF? But then again, I have no idea WTF i'm doing either. Do I like him? or Do I not? I'm getting these confused signals from myself. Am I only interested for the heck of it, or am I really interested? So conflicting. But besides my confused mind, he failed to show me that I'm any different any the other girls. So what does that make of this situation?

The semester is nearing, and so much scholarships that I have to do. Many are almost due, but I have yet to do them.

Okay, I'm just too sleepy to finish and my thoughts are in a jumble. I'll blog again tomorrow, I promise ^_^ lol night kids.

Ciao!

The Days Without Guys - Day 92

How did things get to be this way? One minute, we're all very hyper about the idea of this blog being in our lives, but now, it's like an old broken toy that no one wants anymore. The poor thing.

The year of 2007 is coming to an end soon now, and I have to say, it's been a great year. Can't explain why I'm thinking about it right now though.

I actually started this post a few days back, would have finished it, but was interrupted, so here I am, 4 days later, finishing this up.

These days have been cold and wet. Every time I look outside, the skyy never falters a better shade of gray and the clouds ambiguously tease with better weather. This is a Sunday, and tomorrow is Monday. I have school tomorrow. I don't want to go back though, because if I do, the time between graduating and the present will become smaller. It truly scares me. Which is ironic, when all my highschool days have been filled with anticipation of graduation day. So what's the hype about when we're going to put everything familiar and safe behind us to embark on a strange new path.

For the past years, I've been readying myself for "college" physically, but mentally? I'm a total wreck. One minute i can barely hold in my patient for that day to come any sooner, the next i'm panicking because the have little to no time left to enjoy being irresponsible like any other teen.

*sigh* that aside, let me fill you in on as much as I can over the past months that I've been absent from this blog.

Much to everybody's suspicious of me passing my days with guys, I have rather, been very guyless. There was the occasional flirt, but as flirts go, they never last long. You can only get hyped periodically. Let's call this high, Jackfruit, thanks for the wonderful Che Ba Mau for naming this creature, whom by the way, is the total opposite of me, in many ways...well, physically that is. I've been passing my days with this to look forward to. The occasional speech stopper. On a level, its fun to play around, but to intensify it? i think we're both very reluctant to do anything else. I've been asking myself whether or not I feel anything positive, but to tell the truth, I think this is just another passing for me. Until I can find something else to distract myself, Jackfruit is all that I have. All of the crazy talk that we've had for so long, and might I comment, that this has been going on since last year, when I devised he be the tease of the year for me to make fun of, because god knows we would most likely be voted the "never would have imagined" couple.

The first real stirring of trouble happened on Valentine's day. When during the only class we had together, I asked him if I could have "kiss". Without hesitation, he leaned over and realistically wanted to lay one on me, but I broke at the last minute and moved away, joking that what I wanted was the candy instead. From then on, it was chaos. LOL. Not really...But on one of those crazy days, when I was a little bent backward, I thought I wanted to see where things might have led to, but no. He was busy getting his hair done, and I was not going to wait around for him the entire time. So on and off, we were like this. And this, is just the beginning. So I hope you guys can stay tune for when I can get off my butt to blog about the incidents we have. =]

Tis' not the season of xmas yet, so we'll back it up to the just recently passed holiday. How was everyone's Thanksgiving? Mine was crappy, as usual. But that night, at 3 am, I was standing in the cold of 40degrees, along with 500 people, at the electronic store FRY's, waiting for the store opening at 5. They didn't open until 5:30, due to system troubles, which really reeked my nerves. But in the end, I got my money's with my $300 laptop. Not exactly the one I wanted, but realistically, I don't have money, so until I can get out and make money on my own, I have no big desire to spend my parents hard-earn money. During the wait in line from outside the store to inside the store, I concluded that, FOBBY girls, are really annoying. They think, just because they know good enough english, they can prance around acting all high and mighty. Well guess what, SCREW YOU!!! Seriously, don't they know they're a total joke to society? Though how hard it is that I preach of society's injustice system, it does have it's perks. DEATH to FOBBY GIRLS!

Hmm...what there is to look forward to, is Senior Skip Day, coming up soon. Since I'll be planning it cause everyone else is a punk, I've decided to rename it as "(my real name)'s Skip Day". ^_^ I hope the crowd doesn't go too wild. jaykay. We're going paintball fighting. =] Wasn't my idea, but my planning. lol, I hope there will be no serious damage, seeing as how the liability waiver suggested so. O___o 30 kids from (17-18years old), chasing each other in the cold with guns? oh the HORROR.

I spent over 20 minutes today, giving my Dad a run down on how to watch online series on the internet. hahaha, it almost killed me. Soon, after serious consolation of "how-to", I'll bring my laptop to light and show my parents how to work the thing, so they can watch their movies on the TV in the livingroom, rather than gather around my desk and bed. -___-", it's been a cold weekend, having to sleep rather than on the lower bunk, I had to forgo for the top bunk with just a pillow and 1 blanket. He's at home right now, watching a korean drama...that is 75 episodes longggg!!! T___T When will the madness end.

So yes, I don't have much left to say...But if I do, I will be back.

Here's a little something that made my day awhile ago, hope it will for you too! Link


Ciao!

The Days Without Guys - Day 71

Today's topic is about food. Well, it's always about food for me. I will show some food that I'm lusting for at this moment. Lol I know who lust for food. And you think I'm like starving or something. I'm just an eater. I rather eat and have lots of it, not restricting than have a good body figure. Yeah. By the way, credit the images to Google.. I was searching on google. so credit to the owner of the sites that came up while I search. :) Thanks for the great images.

Soju (I'm sort of craving for Korean food and beverages)



























Kimpap




Jajangmyun (Korean Black bean paste noodle)






















All pasta stuff






















Also casseroles

The Days Without Guys - Day 70

Guess what? I finished Full House. Yeah I got through it. I was kind of pissed of and annoyed while watching it but I managed. It took up to episode 16 for Rain to finally admit his love. Before that he was still in denied and fighting with Song Hye Gyo. I thought the series didn't need to be that long. It could of cut some of the nonesense scenes, seriously it was so frustrating to watch the two main characters fight over the same things and acted the same like it's episode 1. Also the flashback and all was also a waste of time. Overall I don't have a good feeling about this series, maybe at the begining but after watching it I felt bitter. The ending was like one those obvious one and that will happen. I didn't end strong nor did I feel the two main characters have any chemistry together. There was no one moment where there was passion or any chemistry. I have to say that 90% of the series are fighting and argument that went out of hand and overdone. I dislike the two main character so much when I finished the series. I was cheering for Min Hyk, the second lead guy. I wish he didn't spend so much time waiting for SHG's character. Another thing is that the two so called best friends of SHG, I don't like them at all.. I must say I prefer Coffee Prince over Full House. Full House gave me a bad taste of Rain and Song Hye Gyo. I know I dislike their character but it's the overal act and facial, just looking at them. I don't think I can watch another series with them. Sighs. Well I'm glad I'm done with that. I'm looking forward to seeing an ancient korean series next or hopefully those HK series, come out. The one Super Cop I think, not sure. Yeah.

Well the last month I posted so much mostly nonsese. I won't be posting as much anymore unless I really have something to say. The days without guys, day 70 it is a very bad day for me. I feel really lonely and I feel kind of sad. I hope I can gain back my energy and so on to live through Sunday.

The Days Without Guys - Day 69

whatever happened to a happy family?
whatever happened to all the dreams?
whatever happened to all the promises?
whatever happened to everything that i had hoped for?
i really just don't understand why people
chose to act in a way in which that know
its wrongs but continuous doing so and
in the end blame others for their mistakes
i guess its human instinct. -_-.

--- YOU DISAPPOINT ME.


It makes me sad seeing how many people you
make cry and live in constant state of depression.
seeing a little girl sherking noise to save someone
she loves from being attacked is something that
shouldn't occur in one childhood.

sometimes crying about it will solve the problems
sometimes it could make things worse,
build your hatred toward that person who you
know you shouldn't hate cause after all you
would nothing without them.
sometimes you just want to get it all out but
the best anyone could say is "im sorry"
because they don't know how it feels, if they
never been in that situation but really i
don't want to hear words of sympathy. . .

i really don't want to deal with it anymore
i hate the feeling of being suppressed
by someone else's actions. not being able
to know what will happen next.
no plan. no sight. nothing.

once again. your are disappointment to us all.
i'm tired of crying. tired of hearing your lame issues.
tired of it all.