The days without....?

Hi guys! Long time since I've posted, but then, i highly doubt anybody reads my jibberish. :D But for those who do, i'm stump.

What am I without these days? A muse. Inspiration. A desire. I feel like the days just blend into one another, and as much as I love routines to death, I believe it is taking it's toll on me. But I don't feel satisfied. What am I missing? What have I been going without?

Not a guy for sure, my baby's got me covered :) I love you sweetheart.

Then what is my new inner drive? What am I to do with myself now? If life were like a chick flick, I could simply walk away and "find myself". But that is the hardest part to do. To just leave everything and not have any worries or guilt. So why couldn't it be so easy? What burdens us? That noose around our neck is only getting tighter, why haven't I found a way to escape yet? Cut the ties? Ah but I have but my own two hands, hands that cease to do as I wish when it made the knot to begin with.

I want a simple life. I don't need glam or glitter. Call me boring, but I just want to be happy.

I have an idea, but...where are the steps leading to that future? Why am I still sitting in the dark? Gotta get up. Gotta make up my mind.

Is it time to live yet?