The Days Without Guys - Year 2 Day 252

I feel a sense of comfort when I'm staying up late, without a word.
without a word, I am able to reflect upon myself
without a word, I am able to touch the deepest part of my emotions.
without a word, I am able to truly myself.
without a word... how i miss thee.

am i a baby for crying over this?
am i a baby that just needs to learn people's opinions are not important?
i am just a baby.

i just wanted people to know the real me.
to look pass my mistakes in life.
to love me with a forgiving heart.

i just wanted to be accepted....

growing up...

makes you realize certain things. it makes you sacrifice certain things. it makes you gain certain things, makes you love certain things, makes you loose certain things. but never once, does it fail to give you memories.

The Days Without Guys - Year 2 Day Unknown (too lazy to count)

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same." --The Fray

Things have been going pretty okay lately. I wouldn't ask for more. I wouldn't ask for less. It's just the future that is scaring me.

My nationality and religion makes it hard for me to have my cake and eat it too. It just sucks. It sucks knowing that one day, I'm not going to be as happy as I am now. I know that one day, things will change and that I myself will have to change. I try so hard to not think about it because I just want to live for the moment and be happy. I am happy now, but I know that one day, it'll all end. It'll just end. But whatever, I'm going to be as happy as I can now. Somehow, things will work. I know it will.

Until next time!

Che Dau Xanh

Sometimes I just want to pick up my cell phone and just call one of my friends and just talk...be it a long time good friend or just more of an acquataince. It's like this need to tell someone what I'm thinking. And more than once, what ever I'm yearning to share...yeah it's of little imporatnace. And the funny thing is, I'm also waitting for some kind of respond, just to hear another voice than my own.

blah blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhh
ok
it's lovely out. makes me happy =D

It is useless to cry. I feel so stupid...but at least I might be in the process of getting on the right tracks again.

The Days Without Guys Year 2 Day 54

Ever get that feeling when you see someone you like with someone else? I hate that feeling. It sucks. Reallyyy badly...it lingers around for a long time and just makes me feel down whenever I think about it. Whenever I laugh or feel happy again, the thought of it would come back and wipe out that smile on my face. It's not something I haven't experienced before. I wish I didn't have to see that today.

I officially told my dad that I want to be a doctor. I'm now reconsidering what profession I want to go to because if I go to school far away from home, one of my parents would have to go along with me and that just causes a lot of problems for us in the family. It's complicated. So, I figured I'll study something else instead of Anesthesiology, which makes a heck of a lot of money and it pains me at the thought of letting go on that future salary of $300,000 a year *_* The medical school near my area doesn't have that profession in their academic area. They have internal medicine, family medicine, gynecology/obstetrics (eww), osteopathic manipulative medicine, orthopedic surgery, psychiatry & behavior health, and surgery. I will not become a gynecologist/obstetrician! That just sounds gross, man. I'm considering internal medicine. :]

I complain way too much huh. -_-"

The Days Without Guys - Year 2 Day 52

I need to stop my procrastinating habits. I really really need to stop. It's horrible. Any suggestions as to how I should stop?

xoxo,
The Che that will never finish her shit.
Che Dau Xanh.

The Days Without Guys Year 2 Day 51

Che Trai Cay forced me to post something. I don't know what to say. Oh wells. I only have 2 pictures of footie players, though since CTC wants to stare haha. They're currently my favorites.



I melt every time I see that picture.



Karim Benzema
Played for Lyon, but now plays for Real Madrid (eww) but I still love the guy.
Plays for France national team as well, numero 10.

I think I have a thing for #10 players. Messi, Totti, Benzema, Kaka, Cesc...

UGH! I am so freaking lazy to blog right now. I just got home from a 4-hour chemistry lab class and I'm starving! Been at school since 9:30. Ugh. I feel terrible. On a happier note, tomorrow is FRIDAY! YAYYYY. I can't wait until the Barca vs. Valencia match on Saturday because I just saw on the news that Messi already came back to Barcelona, so he'll be playing. I just freaking love that guy to death even though he's quite hideous looking. But who cares. He's mad talented. I would totally date him if I could. :D Anywho. Still no guys for me, but there's this one guy, and well...Banh Xeo, Che Trai Cay, and Che Xinh Xa already knows about so there is no need for me to ramble on & on about that. And I still think its stupid! Its not meant to be, nor was that a sign or whatever. O___o

The Days Without Guys - Year 2 Day 51

there's only so many people you can please in your life.
the ones that you often let down,
are the ones that are most important.
sure, they forgive you.
sure, they love you.
sure, they will support your every action.
surely, the guilt is always there on your part.

on the other hand, he said "good luck" to me before we took our midterm. sadly, his wish for me didn't go through at well. it probably got lost in another dimenstion. haha jkjk. he prolly did good though because the boy is one smart cookie :)